Sometimes I dont understand myself.
I dont feel happy but I dont even know why I feel like Im happy But I realise Im really Not and I dont like it !
My dad said to me in an argument your never happy these days thats what the problem is rosarie.
And it really Really hurt my feelings I hate that feeling when people say youve changed or hinted at it.. And that its a bad thing and it made me feel spoilt! Moody and just selfish and dissapointed with myself :| and at the moment Im feeling lonely and unhappy and I cant give a reason. Its just depressing being with your family who listen to you and then home where its hard because no one listens often :| and friends say they are there but there not because you cant randomly say whats up espicially if they dont notice your even like that.
Im sick of putting on a front. sometimes I just cant do it and everyone gets annoyed with me for being 'moody' so what do I do?
I wish I could feel brilliant. that is what I want! but it doesnt seem to happen much I see everyone else around me having fun. but I dont feel apart of it ! and I do want tooo I dont actually Know whats wrong with me.
Im being really Stupid.Need to tough up! I hate this mood. Being In a mood, for just silly pathetic reasons or none at all.
Sorry to depress you all.
Lovee Rosarie
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